Sometimes I am given a vision, a thought or words for someone who has passed…this will be the 4th poem of this kind. I have not published the others on my site. Whether I was close or not…the words or vision comes without any effort from me. These are the words I felt…for Philani Thusi an ex learner. A young person who took his own life this past week.
No time left…
When you looked at me
You didn’t see the pain
That broke me
That swallowed me whole
It took my soul
So much brokenness
I spiraled down
Left with no confidence
How much I wanted to be accepted by you
A million likes and reviews
A guess you didn’t know the depth
The depth of how far down it went
It’s too late
I’ve walked through the gate
Signed in
Checked in
No second chance to return
To let you know the depth of
My yearn….ING
Longing
For freedom
Of all the pain
That no one knew I was suffering
I’m gone now
But please
Don’t doubt His existence
He loves me…
His persistence
He chased my soul
I’m gone now
I’m made whole
He is the ultimate judge
Remember
Life is not forever
I’m gone
Make your life count
I’m out…
Written for Philani Thusi… From Heritage Academy, Kwa-Zulu Natal, South Africa
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