I cry for all the things Ive lost
I cry mostly for time
That can never be found again
I cry for all the chances I got
And never took
For whatever reason
I just could not
I cry for those who lived and died
And never had the chance
To just
Live
I cry for every dance
I knew I could but walked away
Sometimes we just cannot
Be brave
Sometimes we need to close the door
To be on our own
To reflect
For change
On all our Why’s
And on all our Joy’s
And all our internal conversations
That we as woman
Have
Sometimes it’s just too much
Contemplation
I cry because we find it hard to be real
To be truly free
Of All These Questions
Buzzing around like flies
Distracting me from what is truly mine
Revive me oh God!
Revive me
For in this place
I cannot and will not stay
Author: lovablewarriorking
More than..
More Than…
More than a feel-good feeling
More than emotional upliftment
More than a temporary fix
More than positive feelings
Higher than motivational talks
Higher than the best poem
Higher than the cleverest words
More than a dance
More than the best song
He is a Sovereign God
Writing my story
Writing yours
A sovereign God
A sovereign God
HE took time out for my soul
More than the vast expanse of so great a universe
Sent His son and gave us so great a salvation
So great
So great
It expands like a vast unbreakable bridge
Between Earth and Heaven
And He stands on it
For it is unshakable
So, Come
He says
Come
For opposite to this
Is nothingness
Come
HE says
Come
#grace #nowistime #graceperiod #chasingjoy #refinedbyfire #lovablewarriorking #amandawichmannking
After listening to this mornings on line message, I am convicted about my heart. I am brought back to understanding His love and sacrifice He made for me.
So let us come back to love. His love. Then nothing else matters.
Worship songs this morning.
Shadow Step #hillsongs
“Light up the way of Your heart
Move me like You do the mountains
Move me like You do the wind
And I’ll chase Your voice through the dark
Fix my eyes on the unexpected
In the wonder of Your shadow step
So take another step…”
Just one look #maverickcitymusic
“With just one look
Everything changes
I’m captivated
I’ll never be the same…”
Far Better
Hebrews 6v19
“We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain.”
And the years just fell down one after the other like dominoes
A finger flicked the first year and they all fell down
Time trickles like sand through my hands
All the seconds
All the minutes
All the hours
All the months
All the years
Down to the dust
Down to the ground
Where all that lives must go
And we wonder why
We wonder
Who holds all the secrets of the heavens
All the questions
It is He
The secret things belong to God
So here I stand open
Carrying it all
Sometimes its too much
Time
Falling through my hands
I want to live
I want to love
I want to explore
And do it all
So I stop because chasing things
Is pointless
So I stopped
I rested
I listened
I waited
And my soul took a walk
Outside of my body
She walked into the light
Stepped out into the night
And walked onto the wet green grass
She felt a certain kind of freedom
As she walked slowly
Heart pounding
Something was happening
Something was changing…
New hope was rising
Because she knows her final destiny
Is far better than anything
On earth
Far far better
A hope within
That no one can take away
Ever
There she walks, smiling
Satisfied
Deuteronomy 29:29
The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may follow all the words of this law.
Never The Same Again
When you heart shrinks
And you sat back and think
Where has all the time gone
The things you fought for
Have become a bore
Dead in your inner core
And the years have just disappeared
When people you believed in
Have disappointed and caved
You must turn to the one
Who has kept you sane
When you look back
You can clearly see His hand
But something has changed in you
You are no longer the same
You take a deep breath
Remembering all the storms you’ve walked through
All that they have taught you
And you know that you will never
Ever
Ever
Be the same
But you know you will be more than okay
And you know that He was with you
All the way
You sit satisfied
That He holds your hand
Just hold on and don’t let go!
Stop chasing perfection…
Sometimes you have to be in the crowd to grow and to understand humanity with all its imperfections, brokenness and faults. The sooner you realise that perfection does not exist the faster the growth. If you live separated from all that is and from all that makes us human then you will not grow. Be thankful for everything, the good and the bad because both are meant for your growth. Human nature always strives for perfection, perfect lives, perfect families, perfect body, perfect home, perfect everything…that’s just plain exhausting!
It’s 2020, live fully in every moment.
If I ever catch myself feeling sorry for myself for whatever reason, I close my eyes and think of people sitting without love in hospitals and in their homes or sick people and children with no one to truly care for them then I realize that I have much. I have so much. You have a lot, so stop chasing perfection rather chase joy and be happy today. Life is short to live looking at all the imperfections and flaws in others and yourself. Get up, dust yourself off and get going. Make it happen for you and allow yourself to embrace it all.
Ecclesiastes 7 v 20
20 Indeed, there is no one on earth who is righteous,
no one who does what is right and never sins.
Philippians 3 v 12-14
Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
Winters Over
The smell of oak
And pine trees
The crunch of dead leaves
The coolness of air
and the fresh new breeze
Letting us know
That winters over
Spring is here
The whispers from the stream
Whisper
As you sit and think of many dreams
There are times you think you might
Fall apart
Then grace falls down
On the grey heart
Winters over now
Its over
Spring is here
Behind her smile
What lies behind her smile
Is a heart that was too open
A spirit crushed
By life
And all is challenges
And changes
What lies behind her smile
Is a quiet strength gained
From hard work
And rejection
Strength and wisdom
No one can take away
What lies behind her smile
Is a determination
Not to be left behind
But to pursue her dreams
Despite rejection
She moves forward
What lies behind her smile
Is her brokenness
That’s built within her and has become part of her
A gentleness
An understanding of some things
But never all
What lies behind her smile
Is a knowing That He has to be there
Even when He feels like a stranger
A sense of knowing
The essence of growing
Into a strong woman
Who stands steady
Despite the winds and storms
Of invisible prejudice and racism
Like a firm oak
Planted In values
In something That sometimes she does not even fully know
What lies behind her smile
Is Hope
Blackbird
Black bird
He reached into the depth of it
And there he found what was left of it
A soul that poured out
Clawed out
A living testimony
Crawling out a dark hole
She gave the best of it
Like a black bird
To rise again
Scarred
A living testimony
Strong like a phoenix
A flame sparked
She opened her mouth
And called out from the dark
Echoed voice
Just echoes…
Of a soul
Seeking
Freedom
Blackbird
You have to learn to fly
Again
No Time Left – RIP Philani Thusi
Sometimes I am given a vision, a thought or words for someone who has passed…this will be the 4th poem of this kind. I have not published the others on my site. Whether I was close or not…the words or vision comes without any effort from me. These are the words I felt…for Philani Thusi an ex learner. A young person who took his own life this past week.
No time left…
When you looked at me
You didn’t see the pain
That broke me
That swallowed me whole
It took my soul
So much brokenness
I spiraled down
Left with no confidence
How much I wanted to be accepted by you
A million likes and reviews
A guess you didn’t know the depth
The depth of how far down it went
It’s too late
I’ve walked through the gate
Signed in
Checked in
No second chance to return
To let you know the depth of
My yearn….ING
Longing
For freedom
Of all the pain
That no one knew I was suffering
I’m gone now
But please
Don’t doubt His existence
He loves me…
His persistence
He chased my soul
I’m gone now
I’m made whole
He is the ultimate judge
Remember
Life is not forever
I’m gone
Make your life count
I’m out…
Written for Philani Thusi… From Heritage Academy, Kwa-Zulu Natal, South Africa
Sanity
When you hear about so much pain, people who have lost loved ones, I cannot imagine or fathom the depth of brokenness and the feeling of loss. Do not runaway from God. He is Jehovah Nacham, The Lord your comforter. Psalm 56 v 8.
SANITY
Where is sanity
Buffeted by wind and waves
Not in control
Feeling alone
Feeling overwhelmed
Wondering why
Yet you are in my mind, my soul
My stability
My sanity and peace
When things just don’t make sense
And this world…
When will it embrace you
Tossed about
But afloat…
Jesus!
You are my sanity
My number one remedy
It’s you who died for me
And I’m set free
Through all the pain
I know I will gain
Victory
Immeasurably!
When I was broken into pieces on the floor
I heard you calling to me knocking at my door
You mended
Protected
Elevated
Me
You see…and
I am forever
Grateful
Thankful
Praise – full
In this mouth
I will never doubt
Because Jesus
My sanity
Remedy
Paid a hard price for me
No turning back brother, sister
Mother, father
No use looking
There is no other
Stop wasting time
Living in your grime
There is no other Divine
Love
Complete love
That goes beyond and above
No one is given more than one life
Why you want keep living in your strife
Make Him your remedy
He is waiting
Anticipating
Your return
Stop deliberating!
Stop looking the other way
No other day like today
Don’t worry and don’t be afraid
He has already paid the price
No need to be dismayed
You can start debt free in His grace
All you got to do is to start the race
Jesus my sanity
Make Him your number one remedy.